You’re not lazy, bored, and procrastinating

I’m afraid of being forgotten. I’m afraid of being lonely. I’m afraid that I don’t matter to anyone. I’m afraid I won’t ever measure up to be the person I want to be. I’m afraid of a lot of things that I never actually realized. I felt pretty down for a couple of weeks, and I didn’t know what was wrong with me. I didn’t want to work, talk or do anything at all. To me, this was all pointing to what society tells me; boredom, laziness and procrastination. But then, four days ago, I watched a video that said, “you’re not lazy, bored or procrastinating; you’re just paralyzed by the fears you don’t know you have”.

What happened?

I looked back on my past few weeks and identified where it all started to go downhill. The day I began to feel inferior. The day I started losing the battles in my mind, the day where my comfort zone overwhelmed me into staying in it. Before that, I tried to build my habits of sleeping early and waking up early, going to the gym at 6 am and doing boxing and skipping right after, working on my craft and reading for 30 minutes every day.

Even though I enjoyed doing this and working on myself, trying to better myself every day, I still hated the fact that I had to say ‘No’ to a lot of the things that I wanted to do. My friends used to play a game, but it was usually after ten, and that was my bedtime, so I would sleep rather than play. I started to fear that I would be forgotten or considered boring or any one of the multitudes of thoughts in my head. Fear creeps up on you in ways you could never imagine. I found a way to battle this fear by giving myself some leniency that I would stay up and play a game with my friends once or twice a week. This way, I can keep the fear in check and have a little downtime, a win-win.

Battling your fears

These fears are deeply embedded in me for a long time. But the best way to beat these fears is to tackle them head-on. What I have done is that I’m afraid of being forgotten, so to battle that, I deleted all my social media accounts. The purpose behind this was that I thought to myself, “So what if people don’t remember you now. It doesn’t matter right now.”. Many of you may not agree with this, but it’s my way of battling my fears, and so far, it is working. If it doesn’t work going forward, then I will change my strategy. All I’m saying is you have to take action against your fears; otherwise, they will have a constant hold on you.

Having fears is scary. They can paralyze you into not doing what you want to. But finding ways to help you cope with those fears or battling them is the best way you can move forward. You will be stronger after having battled your fears because you know how to beat them. I know that if I can do it, then you can too. I had a rough few weeks, but I didn’t give up, so, I believe in every one of you reading this article. Be the best versions of yourselves. Strive for greatness. Tackle your fears and be a stronger you!